Mei v jeWeL

exceptioN

2010-07-27T02:10:00.008+08:00

maybe she know
somewhere deep in her soul
that love never lasts..

and she's got to find a way
to keep it in a comfortable distance
and she has been always lived like this
up till now she had sworn to herself that
she's content with loneliness
ever tried to give her love to someone
that she thought he can be trusted
but it came back with disappointments

none of it was ever worth the risk
well, he is the only exception

imperfecT

2010-07-04T01:37:00.010+08:00

nothing is perfect in this world
human always never satisfy with what they have
instead putting blames on it
never know to appreciate for what have been done for them
always think that things are made for them

while they were looking for a god one
they never realize that
they actually had the better one
stepping into a worse condition
challenging while enjoying the risk
thought that it was better
but end up with a jokes among peoples

sometimes Perfect couldn't achieve happy
it may brings satisfaction
but maybe it doesn't correspond
try to let go the strawberry on the floor
the cake still tastes great
without the strawberry on it
Imperfect sometimes earns more happy

things hardly last long or forever
the most important is
treasure every moment that we have
the memories will last forever

dolL * 47 - fakenesS

2010-03-31T01:42:00.011+08:00

fake sincerity only shows the bareness of its own
once again she realized that
her sincere has been treated like air
the more she knew
the stranger she felt
the more far she walked away

taking her as granted
to reach own purposes
the act of disguising
do thing with halfheartedly
just like a fake branded item
which worth no value

life charming like fireworks
but it's just the fascinating
for a short moment only
it goes back to dull again
remains silence after the bloom
it takes years to build up the trust

and just seconds to destroy it

dolL * 46 - balloonS

2010-03-06T01:39:00.010+08:00

seeing ways of the world changing all around
seems up side down
impossible can be possible

peoples begin their new life with new peoples
strangers could turn into couples
probably end up with nothing one day
from the dearest became stranger
the stranger ever most familiar with
wish to be deleted from memories
or keep the slight connection in between
sometimes feel strange with the closest one
seems knowing less
after get along with each other

the balloons used to be colorful
but not anymore..
some faded
some been taken away
some broken
some flew away into the sky
she's holding those been left over
in her hand

with a love one
she cares, she shares;
much concerns and worries..
without a love one
she found herself released
with bareness sometimes..

she's still be her own doll
walking on the street
waiting for someone
to move into her heart

dolL * 45 - endurE

2010-02-08T01:43:00.008+08:00

she's living under miserable

before disclose the truth of the story
the sky was always cloudy
even the rain has stopped
it aint got anymore reason
for her to restrict for it
slowly she has learn to let go..

the destination is not what matters
it's the path taken that value her journey
things that always remind her of him
enhance her day with memories
now she can lived with it bravely
as one can't escape from the past
somehow it mold her till today
affects her a little
that's where she learn and grew

the moment when the decision is made
she able to bear a smile
without any burden and worries
her heart draws a dream
traveling and shopping
hanging out with dearest friends
she's much more cheerful than before
even she cut her finger
still she can endure it
it's not that pain anymore..

emptiness in longing
bareness of belonging
she feels missing out of no where
her love is transparent
she could breathe it but cant hold it
it couldn't be seen till someone received it

dolL * 44 - learnT

2010-01-02T00:28:00.009+08:00

she knew it's hard to move on
but she has learn the hardest way either
when her heart was broken into pieces
keeping herself in the box
refused to reveal to anyone for half an year
she fake a smile so no one could see it

on the new year eve
the moment she was told that
he got a new girlfriend
she realised..
life just moves on like nothing happened
they are no longer belong to each other anymore
again she could feel her heart is twisted
and the wound is bleeding again
she knew it will hurt again
but she could afford the pain with a smile now
from the day he went away
perhaps their story has came to an end
at the junction where they met and started the story

maybe it's the time for her to let go
reviving herself day by day
to continue her journey with her dreams
seeking for the new blessed love
she will keep him as an memorable chapter
in her memories forever
wishing him to take care of himself
letting go the bad romance
move on to the new chapter of life

she cherish all the memories
thanks for letting her ever walked into his life
he brought memorable moments in her journey
where they took this road someone's gotta go
it's doesn't matter
she wants him to know that
the guitar has stopped playing this song
but it remains there
she's learning to play new song
with a blessed heart

sometimes perfect couldn't keep this love alive
leave behind all the messed up
start afresh for a brand new life
they couldn't have loved each other better
he wanted her to move on
believing that she's sensible
he knew that she loves him so
love him enough to let him go
she will always be here as a friend

yesterday is a history
today is a gift
tomorrow is a mystery

dolL * 43 - admiT

2009-12-28T04:06:00.005+08:00

when she is missing him
she's juz couldn't raise her hand to ring a call
she scared to hurt the wound again when touch it
maybe she has lost her braveness
maybe she couldn't find the reason anymore

it was always a smile when she saw his msg
she didn't expect to see him on the x'mas nite
he looks happy and cheer
"wife is for the whole life.."
heard it from his whisper
she felt that is he in love again
yet she knew she's not the one in his heart already
the smile that been missing long time ago
appeared on his face again

she didn't think that much
the rainbow in the dark might not going to exist
sitting beside him with an ordinary heart
she's happy enough she can talk to him again
she cherish it
as the one she ever loved

dolL * 42 - doubT

2009-12-26T01:47:00.010+08:00

sometimes maybe silent is the best medicine

she didn't know her bugging will make him frustrated
maybe she has been asking too much
she doesn't mean to bother him
though she's not the priority

still she will be the back up to lend her hand
whenever he needs
no matter what she have said
it's all just her concern and worries

she will only talk to him freely like no one
he is the person who she can share all in her heart
ears to receive her every complain
place where she can cry her heart out
when she's upset
but it scared her
when his words sounds so serious
her tears dropped in a sudden on her pillow
she was blank..
because she scared the trust and dependent
that take years to build up
will just destroyed in seconds

he is off for his vacation again
it might be just a few days time
but it's seems long for her to spend her day
maybe she has got used to it
it's just like the alarm clock beside her bed
always ring at the time when she's still in her dream
she hates it yet she couldn't get rid of it
sometimes she can just off it and overslept
sometimes she still has to wake
even earlier to ring a morning call

it's the imperfect
that fills the satisfaction of life

dolL * 41 - belonGs

2009-12-19T02:04:00.005+08:00

the nite when she logged in facebook

saw his updates
she heard him said out whats in his heart
but she didn't know what to reply
she got lost in the jungle again
maybe she needed to learn to be brave
to face everything that always reflect him

she found the similarity
both are same wishing and waiting for the miracles
that might be not going to happen
but sometimes miracles could be created
when it's believed

maybe they are not belong to each other
she doesn't know where is she belongs to
she juz hope she could belong to someone in the heart
a place where she could rest
when she is tired
a companion who she could rely on
when she feels helpless

she feels isolated
wishing if he could listen whats in her heart
wondering who is able to adopt this little doll
with a beaten heart

Rainbow in the Dark

2009-12-03T02:06:00.007+08:00

she's trying hard to find
the rainbow in the dark sky
if there is coming an end to the world
she's not afraid
if she could hold it with her hand

dolL * 40 - perhapS

2009-11-30T01:08:00.005+08:00

she's afraid of nothing
he is the courage that live her life
she's juz afraid of his refusal again
which dropped her to the deepest
she trust him
for who he is
and believed herself really miss him
so much unexpectedly
cause everything he does and words he says
it all takes her breath away
and now she's left with nothing

when he walked away
she thought of him and whispered
"everything's okay"
when she saw the seaweed soup on the table
she's now believing
she cares
if everything of him is okay
if he has enough rest
if he takes care of himself well
maybe it's true
she can't live without him
maybe two is better than one

maybe she's not the priority
but she wishes she could be the one he saw
at the end of a tiring working day
juz to accompany him by his side
sharing stories of the day
how adorable it would be

dolL * 39 - lockeD

2009-11-28T02:24:00.005+08:00

it's was 2 months ago
when she last saw him at the party
same black and white checkers shirt
wearing on both of them
they were quiet in the crowds
till the moment before she left
her night was brighten
when their line of sights met

he looked sallow
she hopes he doesn't overload himself
still there is someone worry for him
friends said it's a happiness thing to be with him
but why their story doesn't carry on smoothly
like the fairy tales that she read

the nights he came into her dream
the moment her tears dropped
she knew that her heart still remained for him
she wished to stay in the dream
stay in the flash been with him
stay in his warm hugz
his existence drove her the energy to move on
turned into a doll that can be with him all the time
feeling want to stay in his world
though she knew it's hard in real
her heart is locked
he is the key
to unlock the chain

dolL * 38 - tearS

2009-11-07T03:09:00.012+08:00

she thought that she is numb
she fake a smile so he won't see
been trying hard
overlapping herself with endless works
in her heart
looks filled, yet an empty space was left out
it's all just an illusion
that cheating other people
and herself

she looks like normal as usual
but once a single click that reminds her of him
it melted..

when she found out that was him
the missing piece of puzzle in her life
knowing that he's exhausted of his work
her tears juz dropped itself on her face
silently
realized that she still love him

her mind is blank at the moment
she hopes that he is doing well
with her unspoken wishes
she wonders if he knows
he's the reason for the tear drops on her guitar
the only thing tat keeps her wishing on a wishing star
the only one who's got enough of her to break her heart
he's the song leading her into her dream
he's the time taken but there's never enough
she doesn't know why she does
she's going to get some sleep tonight
nothing gonna change

dolL * 37 - irreplaceablE

2009-10-12T02:41:00.007+08:00

she's getting a heart without feeling
even when she's walking into the crowds
she feels that she's walking alone
finding herself in the grassland
with the losing bliss been searching for
she always keep the smile that he likes

if their love could carry on
promises that always sleep her tight
but wake her up with disappointment
still she believes that
the fairy tales might turn real into life

whenever her tears falling on her face
she wipes it off with the hand that he held before
feeling of missing him never end
she would never stop by all this way
she has been loving him

there is always changes in life
fate that meant to be
even can make two parallel lines meet
no matter how tough is the journey
worse thing can be heal to become better
as she knows nothing or no one is perfect
she juz cant tell how good he is
but he's juz irreplaceable

21th...

2009-09-22T03:11:00.004+08:00

21/6
it was supposed the date of their trip to KL
but they didn't make it
and his sudden decision of putting down the relationship
she couldn't believe all those words came from him
she tried to controlled her tears in front of him
but she fell apart in her car
when she called to the close friend
she was upset till she couldn't even breathe the air
her tears couldn't stop from dropping
her mind was messed up all
that was the worst day she has had in her life
she wished there is a place she could hide
to release all her messed up feelings
where no one could get her
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21/7
she just got to changed her rim
which she wanted desperately for so long
but she felt that the excitement is being replaced
while longing one thing for too long
wonder if it's really belongs to her
she started missing the original rim
which have been used all this while for 2+ years
maybe it's just the matter of time to get used to it

it's same like she has been like him for years
and her wish of if he is her boyfriend one day
was just like a dream
and never expect it could come true
when he was finally belonged to her
yet the strong feeling of missing him like crazy
has turned into another forms of caring
feeling of fullness fills the gap when things is imperfect
emptiness comes over the board when things is just perfect
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21/8
this was the week in between both of their bday
14/8 & 28/8
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21/9
3 months apart from that day..
2nd day of Raya festive celebration
the wedding day of his good friend

she sat on the beach at damai puri
felt the smoothness of the sand through her fingers
looked up to the sky
the lively scene on the beach with crowds
but did anyone take in the serene on the other side of the sea as concern?
who knows things can just happened in seconds like tsunami
no one can predict how much the gain and lose
so cherish every moments before it's too late
and it's never too late
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21/10
... ... ...

28.08

2009-09-08T01:59:00.013+08:00

she had a birthday wish

she wished she could spend her bday with him
the only birthday wish she made
that is the greatest birthday present for her
which neither a money worth present
nor an formal dinner could replace it

the moment he replied her msg
can't hold the tears of excitement
she can't wait to see him again
on her special day

sitting in the cafe with their Memories
the emergence of all the old times
reminded her of time was flying
since the day he walked into her life
the fairy tales lived her life
no doubt she ever upset and cried
but she always believe
Love is not love,
until someone receive it..
she can't tell how much she miss him
worries of he has enough rest
taking care of his health
doing well in his job
filled up her mind
she will take care of herself for him too

she wonders
if the fairy tales is never real
she would rather stay in it
to be his princess forever
would it be a rainbow appears
in the silent night
after the heavy rain pour?
雨后宁静的夜晚会有彩虹吗？

Paper & Pen

2009-08-24T03:50:00.004+08:00

dolL * 36 - unknowN

2009-08-22T02:26:00.005+08:00

she was watching drama in her room
the character in it reflected herself
conversations that meant to her
same things that she would worry and do
she just felt herself in the story

the invitation to his birthday
she has no word to describe it
definately she was happi that
he took the initiative
but yet she felt anxious
a stranger that she known
familiar yet unfamiliar
he treated her as usual like how they were been
sparkles of the stars twinkling
cold and warm switching on and off
sometimes he cares, but sometimes he's not
it's just like a storm came after the sun
she doesn't know how long could she stand
she just worried
she would fall into sickness
would it always be a rainbow after the rain?
she prays and wishes..

no doubt she wished she could know the answer
but she didn't ask anything about it
bcoz she gives a face
she feels the answer like the air
that she breathe in
yet it untouchable but she needs it
she wished he would tell her
she has been doing all this for him
without knowing the reasons why
her heart was driving her all the way
she wished she could know the status

worries and worries always filled up her mind
seems that the worries has overcame her cares
maybe the feel of longing has faded
without realizing
when their time was covering by works and problems
she's trying to find it back
the feeling that she has been lived with it for years
she doesn't want to lose the special one
bcoz she loves him deeply
plz stay at the corner that she can feel your warm
she will never go away
no matter when it rain or sun

14.08

2009-08-15T03:17:00.010+08:00

the day she has been waiting for
she just hopes to do something special for him
on his special day
every year 14th of August
is a day that more important than her own birthday

things happened before is bothering her
as it's been a while they didn't see each other
her mind was bare
till the night before she talked to the friend
she gave her idea to gather all his friends for a hang out
and celebrate for him
she offered to help to contact them too
she really thanks her with her heart
*thanx siowei*
*hugz*
^-^

she didn't want to let him know that is her plan
she just wants to surprise him
without any expectation
he sms her trying to ask her
if she can go for his celebration
her tears of excitement dropped
for taking the initiative
she didn't know whats in his mind at that moment
she felt worth for what she has done for him
she promised she will go
to the party that she planned
her mind was full of twist and turn

no word can describe her feeling
when he walked towards her
and sit beside her
the subtle feeling just so real
sitting beside him is a happiness thing
to see his smile in front of her again
is the biggest comfort to her
having fun thru the night
they sang him bday song when the cake was served
bday trick was on after he blew the candles
passing chocolate piece from his mouth to hers
putting all the cream on his face
and made her to lick it off
first time she did it for his bday

she hopes he would like it for the night
with a card that she specially edited for him
he looks happy when he looked at those pictures
old picture of him that she kept for years
other than "happy birthday"
she didn't write any word in the card
it's all the pictures of their story
she lets the pictures to do the talks in her heart

she hopes this birthday is a different and special one
yet he knew the plan before the night end
he told her that he never had this kind of birthday before
this is meant to her
without finding out the status
she has loved him from the start
and she never change her way to love him
she hopes it last

dolL * 35 - wisheS

2009-08-07T01:18:00.004+08:00

another week to go
planning to sketch all her feeling out
into pieces of paper
and color it
couldn't find a word to describe her feeling
drawing will do the talk
on the day itself
14.08

the haze outside her window
makes her hardly breathe the air
and the affection runs through her soul
hating it could go away
she wishes he didn't go away

maybe she hates that for the thing he didn't do
but she loves the thing he has done for her
hate makes her loves him more
she hates that she loves him
she wishes he doesn't get sick of this weather

she wishes she could photoshop on
their memories of fleeting
all the flashback
won't leave her alone
she wishes he could come back to her

nothing she can change the past
she couldn't change the habit of calling him pig too
she just wishes that he would listen to her
side of the story

dolL * 34 - clicK

2009-08-02T03:24:00.008+08:00

weather changes its mood like crazy
rainy ending given to a hazy hot day
it just like her life
miss-adore-cherish-lost
pulling her up to the hills
and
pushing her down to the vale
it's never easy to take it alone,
it's even harder when it's two
beliefs and supports make her survived
she appreciates to those accompany by her side
while she's struggling
"Life is life photography, we all developed from negatives."

the air has a weird smell
but she couldn't feel anything in it
hardly breathe the air
probably her feeling has been arrested
she is breathless

keeping herself like nothing ever happened
though she knew she's not
just a little thing around
could always remind her of him

meeting her friend of friend
listening the same name calling around her ears
staying at the same area that she familiar with
brought her to the time and place where they've been
a call from his friend
colors that she wears
the road that leading to their destination
places that they used to eat together
everywhere she goes draws his shadow

it all clicking the red button in her heart
raising up all her veiled feeling
that buried in her heart
it never disappear
just a little thingy
will unveil all of it
*12 more days to his bday*

dolL * 34 - adorE

2009-07-17T04:08:00.008+08:00

another day has gone
wishing him doing well everyday
though they are apart from each other
still she is here to stay
she will never say goodbye
just want to let him know
he is not alone
for she's always here with him

she miss his voice and the way he talks
the touch of his hand on her hair
the warm hand holding her with him
that always recharge her to full
he's always in her heart
she wants to hear from him
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he is just different
from those like to act perfect
talk candies and make donuts promise
in front of their girl..

without realizing how good he is
instead of confessing his imperfections to her
blocking her from being too good to him
but it couldn't stop her passionate of adoring
she will just stay with him silently
to feel him in her heart

she only feels herself real
when she's with him
she's not a pretentious type of girl
she never hide her adorableness
to the prince deep in her heart
though she is independent and walks confidently
but he didn't know the best thing he did is
he has won her heart
the patient to reads her words
the granting of their relationship
makes her believes in his authenticity
no one else will do this for her
in this world
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she made up her mind
she will not go away
no matter how tough it is
no one else can be replaced
the special and only one in her heart
the charming star that she could see in the darkness
though he felt himself is nothing
the missing piece that she found to complete her life
she wants him to be her chef forever

probably too much space been given
leading them to the points apart from where they clicked
a distance of emotionless
had obstructed the passion from growing
problems and stresses had overcame his feeling
made him into pokerfaced
but the habit of caring for him
hardly get rid from her

just the other night
she thought she's tough to be on her own
occupying herself into bunch of works
only sleep can rest her mind
that always getting her into emo mode
still she prays for him everyday
hoping that he is fine
missing him madly
down to the core of her heart
she only feels adored when she's emo
你是我生命中的最捨不得...

dolL * 33 - shadoW

2009-07-15T02:48:00.006+08:00

she's counting down the days
to his birthday in one month
she still remember what she did for him
on his last birthday
she made a very special present for him
he felt her heart and sincere in it
her dream came true
because of him

she's not a drama queen
and she doesn't want to feel in this way
but she's just the way she is
her love to him will never change too
she doesn't know if it's a beautiful disaster
or a timeless castle in the sky
her tears drop on the withered rose
if the smell would come back again
or it only can be recalled in her memories
he confessed all his imperfect to her
she bear it all
yet she won't just leave him
their memories still alive in her heart
everywhere she go portraits the shadow of them
she feels him everywhere

it has been years she has him in her heart
she lives under his shadow
she will never learn how to put him down
even he made her cries and broke her heart
he picked up her happiness
yet he wanted to put it down
she believes in her sense that
he loves her too
he did
just his feeling has been concealed
in the situation that he's having at this moment
without he realized it

there's perfect only in his imperfections
for love to be true between her and him
she hopes time can give them a revive
to let the charm of love come back to them
she doesn't regret things that she has done
but the things she didn't do
when she had the chance
she doesn't regret to love someone
that really means to her
he's still the one that she loved for

dolL * 32 - serenE

2009-07-06T01:45:00.008+08:00

every words that he told her that day
keep on repeating in her mind everyday
every single moments..

she doesn't angry or get mad at him
she is just trying to soothe her mind
and getting herself to analyze the situation
she gives him time to rest himself
as well as herself..
maybe he needs some time and space
to spare himself out of the frame of stress
problems that he has in his life
she doesn't want to be his burden too
if it's not happy, it's not the end
it's just the beginning of their life..

she has tried her best
to put herself into work this two weeks
but still she feel empty in her heart
worse than she didn't get to see him
she cant explain the feeling
she just knows that she feels real in herself when be with him

now the princess got lost in the jungle
and cant find the way back to her castle
cold wind and loneliness couldn't fear her
yet she doesn't move a step from the spot
bcoz she loves the nature of the jungle so much
and wish he can accompany her to live in the jungle together

during this period he thought that he knows it all
but this will only send her to misery
she never thought that need him there when she cry
she counted the days she has left him alone
everything that she did reminds her of him
and she loved the things that he did
she didn't go away
she just hides and thinks
she will not go away too..
the words that she need to hear
to always get her thru the day
she miss him..

dolL * 31 - difficultY

2009-06-24T02:09:00.008+08:00

2 days ago.. it was 21/6/09
he said he wanted to tell her something
important about their relationship..
at that moment she already guessed what is he going to say
she just couldn't believe it
this day could happen..

he chose not to tell her in front of her
bcoz he didn't want to see her sad face
he scared to be nervous and didn't what to do
but she couldn't control herself
she wrote down her feelings on a small piece of paper
her brain was not working suddenly
and drove to his house
they talked in the car for an hour
she tried to calm her feeling down and talked to him
she didn't want to let her loved one to see her cry also
but still her tears can't stop dropping down
crying in her heart

she knew he always has his own thinking
she also has her determination
he chose to let go bcoz he felt that she deserved for better
he has too much stress and problems at this moment
and hardly have time for her
yet he felt more guilty when she always treat him nice
and been so patient to him
he just felt like to put down his mind
and live with the problems in his life
without involved her in
she disagreed with it
bcoz she couldn't leave him alone with all this
she felt sorry for didn't realise that
her love has given him so much pressure
till he really can't tolerate with it
to make this decision which he didn't want to
he hoped this will be more fair to her also
as he didn't want she feel sad when he always overlook her
which made him feel unfair to her
just bcoz of his selfishness

but for her..
she really can't let go of him
as he is the only one she loved for
she has loved him deeply in her heart
she hopes he doesn't give up for their relationship so easily
instead she only want to share with him all his pressure
take this as a care in life
and that will be the best way for her

after the argue of both determination
she didn't blame him for anything
but she get to know and understand him more than she did
she couldn't have the ability to fly anymore
she just wan to stay by his side
be his companion
and face the problems together
she hopes he can give each other a chance
let her walk into his world

dolL * 30

2009-06-22T02:06:00.003+08:00

*8/6/09*

it was a wonderful day
even she still need to go to work as usual
but her mood was brighten up
when she's going to meet him
had lunch together after he finished work
he stirred her drinks for her before she finished her food
she use tissue to stop the water on the table
from dropping onto his leg
she wanted to buy him a hand cream
as his hand always got hurt during work
wearing the same purple pant together
a little action that showed
cares and loves
which are more than words

maybe no one understand this dream of them
they know just how difficult it is
but things will be different once they hold hands
thats what they been thru
she doesn't care how it's done
every single little thing that she did for him
she really meant it to him
she gonna be with him
and gives her hand to him
to fold her heart

Purpled loVe

2009-06-12T04:32:00.005+08:00

28.05.2009
from this moment..
she hopes to be with him
for the following every 100th day
in their life..

dolL * 29 - differencE

2009-05-22T02:26:00.008+08:00

sometimes she feels that
he is different from others
the way how he acts and he thinks
in others people's eye
he may not the perfect ideal one
but
the difference makes him unique
in her heart
that put them to be together

she accepts all about him
bcoz that is the one she loved for
her special only one
the feeling so strong
when he holds her hand
sitting by her side
she feels him in her heart
deeply..

she wish could live with him together
the scene that always comes into her dream
brighten up her nite
makes her sleep tightly
after the whole day long of work
she smiles in her dream

dolL * 28 - eternaL

2009-05-18T01:42:00.004+08:00

she worked at a wedding dinner last nite
it's was a grand wedding at Fourpoints
printed the photos of memorable moments on the spot
while she was physically busy
she emotionally miss him too
she wore the purple jacket
which belongs to both of them

sometimes when the word "Marriage" came over her mind
she wonder how will it be
when she is the bride and he is the groom
from that moment onwards
they will never have to be alone
as her faith in him will never fade
thats all she really know

she willing to accept what she has
until the moment comes to her life
she feels warmed
when he's in the purple jacket that they have
she feels most loved
when she's in the presence of her special someone
somehow in someway
he attracted her, she clicked on his heart
her heart only belongs to him
wants to lives with him together

she went to temple to pray for him
she hopes everything goes on well for him
she worries as he got fever
he has no appetite for food
she hopes he get well soon
after he took medicine and rest
she wants to look after him by his side
thinking of him every single moments
she juz care of him

dolL 27 * - portraY

2009-05-02T02:16:00.006+08:00

she went to the lion dance competition
to be his supporter
it was an interesting event that she ever went
even though tired but it's a sweet day

she always has a lots of thing to tell him
but her heart turn into silent mode
all the words can't be told out
it's hidden in her heart
when she is with him
she juz want to feel him by her side
for the every single moments

she knew the team were upset for the result
as well as him
but it's a competition
doesn't matter win or lose
it brings developments
by the way
he has won her heart away
he's already the champion
deep in her heart core

she doesn't have a good camera
to capture for every moments
all the pictures portray in her memories
her heart will be the album
to collect and memorize it

dolL * 26 - charmeD

2009-05-02T00:25:00.008+08:00

she was with him for the preparation
the day before the competition
he talked about the new born baby
of his younger cousin
thinking of settling down with her
she was charmed to hear that

while she was enjoyed listening to him
he asked her if wan to get married with him
she paused for seconds
looking at him
even though she already got the answer
in her heart
at that moment she was juz too shocked
as she didn't know how to react in a sudden
to a dream that she has been dreamed for

the only answer in heart
will always be a yes
no matter when or where
she will be ready to be his princess

dolL * 25 - momentS

2009-04-26T03:32:00.002+08:00

she felt the heartfelt from him
since the moment he accepted her sincere
she knew it might not be in the best situation
at this moment
been jobless and juz started with a new job
but she believe they can improve it
by working hard together thru their dreams

no matter in what situation
she knew she juz love him
her heart only belongs to him
her life filled up by him
it wouldn't complete without existing of him

they may have to live apart from each other

she felt dismayed at that moment
but she wouldn't ask for stay
as she understand what he wants
he is working hard to earn more
to own his own cafe in one day
that was his dream
she will give him full support
try hard to archive her dream as well
for the moment waiting for him

she cherished every moments with him
since the very beginning
this is the place where she got into
to extract her feeling
she is here for him

dolL * 24 - comforT

2009-04-16T03:08:00.005+08:00

she was so sick of people's back stabbing
spreading rumors among others
she just ignored it and moved on

she works hard for her dream
sometimes it's really exhausting
but she feels worth it
bcoz they live for their dreams
they are busy most of the times
but their hearts stay connected
to each other

she miss him
touching her hair
and holding her hand
she needs him by her side
to let her into in his arms
giving her a warm hug
without any words
she could feel better

dolL * 23 - onlY

2009-04-14T01:55:00.005+08:00

maybe he is not that perfect
in other people's eye
as no one is perfect in this world
but he is the one in her heart
the only one
no substitution could replace him
he is the special and only one
that she has been looking for

she miss him
yet she doesn't want to bring worries to him
she will be an independent girl
works hard for her dream
to create a brand based on him
JEWEL
it will be her dream together with him
she lives her dream
and make it come true

she only wants to be with him
holding his hand for the rest of her life

dolL * 22 - supporT

2009-03-31T01:22:00.010+08:00

life always comes with twists and turns
things maybe not going right now
maybe it's just out of the mind
when it meets frustration
she always believes that
there is a hope all the time
when it comes to the dead end
there is always a spare light source
when the candles is going off
a hope just like a star in the dark

she appreciates for sharing his problem with her
she would like to share with him
face the problem and solve it together
she hopes he never take it on his own
as he has her with him now
he is not alone...

she hopes he always remember that
when he feels helpless,
and no one is on his side
he still got her by his side
she is here with him all the time
to be his listener
even the whole world going to neglect him
she will be the one who gives him support
because she cares for him

she understands how he feels
don't think too much
have a nice sleep tonight
everything will be okay babe
~.~*

dolL * 21 - togetheR

2009-03-22T03:30:00.007+08:00

days and moments she's with him
even just a sms or a call in a single day
could fill her to full for a day

leaving down a sweet message
while he was sleeping or busy
hoping that he got enough sleep and rest
and taking good care of himself
worries come when he got sick
or dragged himself even he was tired
she would want to stay by his side
hold his hand until he's getting well

sometimes when they were together
unspoken understanding blended their feelings
her heart was so warm all the time
dropping her to work in the morning
accompany her to lunch together
after a drained day of work
the waiting for him to bring her back from work
she has forgotten the tiredness
with his concern, smile, hug
and a goodbye kiss before left

the waiting is worth her for him
since she has loved him from the start
she lives in his pocket of heart everyday
to feel what he feels
even she doesn't get to see him everyday
their hearts live together

they belong together
she wants to do everything for him
to get him through the day
and make everything okay

to be together with him
is the greatest happiness
he is the only one she let inside
she sees rainbow after the rain
she can breathe the air
because he is here with her

dolL * 20 - speciaL

2009-03-10T02:22:00.014+08:00

the story began with J
J-rock bring them to this junction
his extraordinary attracted her
same sense of styles and colors
connected both J together
she found her happiness
with him

she loves his character
for being a pig
his hand warms her heart
the way he looks into her eyes
when he talks and tells her story
makes her feels that
he means to her
and she will keep every single memories
deep in her heart

she worries he easily got sick
as he always sleep very late
or tired with works and practices
she wants to take care of him

she believes that
their love is growing better each day
with supports and cares to each other
instead of materiality consumption
that's the moral she learns from the movie
"love matters"

for her
he is special
and
she will be his special one too

^-^*

dolL * 19 - beloveD

2009-03-01T01:45:00.009+08:00

"if i were a boy..~~"
when the first time she listen to this song
she fell in love with it already
the melody touched her heart
it just like the first time she met him
she fall for him deeply
his voice melted her heart
before they met each other

he is the prince that she dream of
in her fantasy world
every moment that they had been together
brighten up her memory box
she wants to catch a star
to put into his heart
she wished to bring hopes to him
she will always be there to give him support

she believes that they were made
for each other
he is the only J in her heart
the most valuable jewel in the world
she juz wanted to be with him
^-^*

dolL * 18 - finallY

2009-02-22T00:36:00.007+08:00

she always believed
the existing of miracles

when she was tiring of bunch of works
she got the sms from her pig
who she has missed out for quite a long time
she has fall for him again at last winter
as she loved him from the start
her heart melted..

she didn't expect that much of return
from the bday present she gave him
bcoz nothing changed after that
he told her..
he was so touch of her present
bcoz never got a gal treat him like this before
it was all her expression from her true heart
a special present that she ever create
only for someone special
like him..

she realli feels thankful to him
for his acceptance
to begin their story together
she has been waiting for this moment for so long
but it's all worth it
bcoz finalli her dream turns into real
he is the prince that she waiting for
all this while..

she will love him as who he is
share and care for him
as much as she can
no doubt trust and confidence are needed
but she will try her best
to be his princess~

dolL * 17 - oddnesS

2008-12-24T10:50:00.005+08:00

she feels unfilled since that day

even she has been busy with works

her time was filled up

but not her mind

she got a lot of things to think and do

somehow she felt odd

something has been left out in her heart

which she used to very familiar with it

she put it in freezer of her heart

still it comes back randomly

now she's confused

she accepted the fact

sometime the air still got stucked in her chest

she felt that she doesn't own anything

since the drug was taken away from her

she lost her addiction yet she's not

maybe she's juz haven't get used to it

piece of her soul lost somewhere

need times to get it back

maybe she should put all that aside

go back to her fantasy world for vacation

do what she likes for herself

recharge the low battery to full

sometimes a fall doesn't equal to a lost

it enhances the strength to move further

she learnt the imperfect

she believes that

she had gone for what she wants

so be it if it doesn't want her back

maybe it doesn't deserve her anyways

dolL * 16 - exhausteD

2008-12-19T10:44:00.008+08:00

she didn't know it would bring trouble to him

if she knew she won't ask for anything

she was took to pieces

she didn't expect this would happen

it's ok if he doesn't understand her feeling

but it realli hurt

when he scolded her

she knew it's useless to talk more

at that moment

if he felt better to put his temper on her

she would juz accept it

she juz hope nothing changes

she is still the one who always here for him

whenever he needs

go ahead for what he likes

as long as he is happy

thats enough for her

maybe she would try to change

her way of concern

but

the sister wouldn't leave him away

he is always her lovely brother

what happened is happened

she couldn't control it

she really hopes he understands

and believes in her

she won't do things that will trouble him

she need a rest

dolL * 15 - confuseD

2008-12-18T14:13:00.004+08:00

the little birdie is staring at her

but she don think it can understand her

same like he doesn't understand her dream

hardly to give a smile

they have been gone thru all this

with honest and sincere

but couldn't find a same exit

how long would it be

from now on to the feel of heart ache

is there any imminent?

sometimes it is suffering

when pretend not to say a word

how does an expectation look like

her heart got hurt juz in a sudden

is it all about he hold hand with someone else

or the matter between her and him

he told her where is he going

yet she confused

at the next moment

she couldn't figure out

dolL * 14 - hurT

2008-12-18T09:37:00.006+08:00

this is the first time

her dream comes true in real life

but she can't breathe the air

bcoz it's a dream which she doesn't wish to come true

how could this happened ?

all her six sense and observations

are correct

she is sick now..

her chest got stucked

hardly feels the air to breathe in

her brain run out of oxigen

she needs a doctor

to cure her sickness

to assemble her broken pieces of wing

the angel is too weak to fly

she is actualli not that strong as she thought

she need a support

for her to fly further

nothing is perfect in this world

learn better from the fall

take the imperfect to replace

be strong to continue journey

no matter how heart ache is
always need time to heal it

the angel wishes he could see

she flies higher with the wounded wing

drugGz

2008-12-17T14:11:00.005+08:00

he is a drug

she knew he got nothing good

but still she addicted to him

once she get used of it

day after day

it's hard to get it off

yet she knew

it's not good for health

to become a second hand smoker

but still she don mind of it

she is exhausted

bcoz the drug is taken away

from her

her care for who he is

will never reduce

dolL * 13 - abandoN

2008-12-17T09:53:00.013+08:00

she got a dream last nite

which make her hardly breathe the air now

she doesn't wish this to happen

yet it happened...

her six sense is always right

she couldn't believe that is true

it's so complicated

she is falling down from the tree

and feels the hurt

she owaz reserved a seat for him next to her

but now he is happy to be with someone else

which he didn't notice that

she is waiting in the park

her tears dropped into her heart

no one see it

maybe it's too late when she realized that

she's actualli had reserved for him

a place in her heart which she get used to

she always be there whenever he needs

juz that all this while

she doesn't think that she'd miss him

that much

she has been deny her real feeling to everyone

and herself

she's not only cares for him as a friend

she wanted to get this off her chest

she wondered why ppl always got their love easily

but she's always the one left behind

she doesn't how to sort it out

no word can describe her feeling at this moment

only

eMpty

='<

she tried to take a picture of love

tried to type a message

she got a piece of paper

but its empty

...

dolL * 12 - holD

2008-12-15T10:39:00.015+08:00

she wanted to get rid off her madness

she sat on the tree branch alone

yet her mind couldn't stop blending

all the word he said

and the name mentioned

how could she juz get mad of a name?

she guess she must be crazy edi

she knows mayb he don think that
she is trying to do her best for him

but she is juz blank in a sudden

when he is probably taken off

she couldn't imagine that

if she has to learn to live

without bother for him
it's not easy to accept a changes

either physically or mentally

bcoz she's so get used to him

all this while

she holds tightly to the branch

she scared to get hurt

from falling down from the tree

she doesn't know how to get down from the tree

she doesn't know what's the purpose
keep on mentioning the name to her

make her so moody edi

emo

empty

time freeze

...

she wants to hold the second

and she hopes nothing is moving on

could it be?

dolL * 11 - addictioN

2008-12-13T11:53:00.012+08:00

x'mas coming soon

she was with the pig on the x'mas eve last year

it's would be a sweet memory

between her and pig

he's the one she likes

in her fantasy world

back in reality

she got addicted to him

the one she cares

it doesn't equal to the one she likes

she realized that
it wouldn't be the same person
the one she likes and the one she loves

she stayed at the origin

she got stuck between her fantasy and what is real

but no doubt

she prefers to be with the one she adapted to

she dono if she would quit

instead of stepping into it

she's already get used to him

but suddenly he is going on with someone else

she is getting mad and jealous

she hardly breathes the air

it's all bcoz of him

dolL * 10 - meltinG

2008-12-05T16:46:00.009+08:00

it's has been so long she missed out her pig

since summer and now winter begins

quiet all this while, busy with lives

till got no extra time to think of it

after gave her special present to him on his bday

everything going on as usual

nothing is changed..

she had tried to bury all her feeling

deep into her heart

without any expectation of return from the present

but

all the hidden feeling came out again

at the moment she saw him today

she realize that she's still mind of him

the pig is always in her heart

she didn't let go of him but juz put aside

she thought she has lost feeling to him

but she's actualli not..

she thought she has lock her mind

of being apart from him

but this time

she may have failed

bcoz she has loved him from the start

she guess she will be fall for him

over again

...

she was juz kept an ice cream in the freezer

to maintain its shape all this while

once the green light indicates

it still melts

it's freezing outside

but her heart is melting

...

dolL * 09 - losT

2008-11-27T09:40:00.004+08:00

she cried last nite

suddenly her soul was broken into pieces

and empty

when she was told all her document was gone

no back-up is saved..

all her collection of chronicle and memories of years

all of a sudden

she felt that..

she was thrown out from the planet

lost her memories and dono who is she

floating in the air with no direction

hardly to recall back

but only broken pieces of it

she couldn't imagine that

if she drove her car out at that moment

she wan to get rid of the mad

her anxious max out to the most

she felt calm after talk to him

to get the madness off her chest

while she felt sorry to her papa also

for being wild in front of him

she didn't want to

as she knew her papa realli care of her

but she juz lost control of it

she is not blaming anyone

but herself

dolL * 08 - runawaY

2008-11-19T16:31:00.005+08:00

she feels scared in the jungle..

scared of the real world

full of cruel, wicked and coldblooded

no one can be trust

she felt unsafe when talking to everyone

except him

she wished she could runaway from it

but somehow

she couldn't find a way out of it

she got lost..

there are a lot of scary creatures

showing good and kind in front of people

but back stabbing people from the back

which you wouldn't realise

till the moment you see the blood and feel pain

she has to hide her anger

smile and talk nicely to that scary creature

she is trying to protect

and save him

from the jungle of evilness..

desiGn reCipe

2008-11-15T11:33:00.004+08:00

creative? arts?? recycle???

LoL~

it was juz having fun after finished lunch

design n deco the plate by using the food left on the table

it started with my plate which left all the chilli slices

which i pick out from my fried rice

hehe..

the 2 colas is juz to make the composition looks nice

added in

carrot cucumber

fries, prawn tail and dried chilli

ta dah~~

it turned into a prettie smiley

additional ribbon on the head by using chopstick plastic

done loO~~

by ahloong jyhhaur & me

she drinks coLa~

too much brainstorming for design student i guess

we can juz simply come out with the design idea

with limited sources that we have

lalala lala~

^-^*

dolL * 07 - hiding deviL

2008-11-13T15:17:00.006+08:00

she noticed someone is hiding

behind the bushes

there is the devil with two-faces

which she hated the most

wearing a mask to get close with people

but pointing bad from her back

or trying to hide from what they have done

assumed that she wouldn't know

she actualli knows but juz keep in mind

she doesn't want to unveil the devil out

that will only be a stupid action as they did

she was realli pisSsed off at this time

when she found out the truth from third party

sometimes she can't understand

is that devil acting stupid

pretended to be innocent

or realli didn't know what have been done

is getting other people into trouble

over react for what supposed to be

action taken always didn't match with what have been said

didn't know how to be flexible at different situation

but only follow the rules blindly

it's even worse than a blind person

she will beware from the devil
don't ever think to hide behind the bushes

a devil's step is not hard to be discovered

in such a small garden

groWing gift

2008-11-13T14:37:00.007+08:00

the 3 little plants moved to a bigger house

keeping at the balcony

happi to see that they are growing healthy

i dono how big would it grow up to

bigger, more leaves, flower or tree??

lol.. i'm still waiting and wondering lo..

taking good K of my weird bday gift which i never got before.. haha..

dolL * 06 - worrieS

2008-11-10T11:12:00.013+08:00

she stares at little blacky

it juz keep quiet

wearing a devil mask

to cover its real expression

but she knew little blacky is not happy

something is happening

it always didn't want to tell

hide inside and undergo by itself

thought that it's not a necessary to let her know

it doesn't know that

she's more worries

when come to this situation

she doesn't want to get angry with him

she juz hope he can share with her

to solve the problem together

at least there is someone to share with

someone to give support

to cut down the weight of suffering

on little blacky's shoulder

she hates to see it got annoyed

by its kind-hearted

it should learn to consider the limit

she always know

when little blacky made mistake

or not in the mood

even it tried to cover it up

she juz wanted it to know that

little blacky, u are not abadoned

and never alone

...

dolL * 05 - complicateD

2008-11-06T10:20:00.018+08:00

they are not twins

but is she herself

onLy

sometimes she's tired of

being different character in her life

she hates herself for who she has to be

bcoz she has to act

acting is not her talent

but she tried very hard for it

guess she is doing quite well

yet it's realli tiring to be a twin

when you are actualli not

switching black ribbon to white on the same dress

slightly changes to present as another character

her spirit is splitting into pieces

how could she gather all the puzzle pieces

to assemble into a complete set

she juz wanted to be herself

and she only can be real her in front of him

bcoz she can be transparent

to be who she wants to be

pour out all the words in her heart

instead of putting on colors to decorate herself

in front of peoples

a simple support will bright her day up

lead her to a little smile

^-^

she hopes he could understand

she doesn't like to be in this situation

but she has to

thats the way she could deliver her support

in the way he needs

it's simple yet complicated

it's a challenge when doing something

that she doesn't talent at

for the one she care

but it means

...

+U!!

dolL * 04 - perfecT

2008-10-22T10:18:00.009+08:00

she is a perfectionist

life was busy..

don hav extra hours to sleep more as she wish

but still she can manage to dress up

and get things done for herself

and for him too
she feels that too much let go

will make her worries

so she decided to give her concern

in the way he needs

without other people's awareness

that has became part of satisfication in her life

it's not easy to be simple
sometimes simple can be turned into complicated

at certain moment

when rules meet judgements

it becomes understanding

she learnt that

tolerate to create perfect

to move further

in silence

dolL * 03 - silencE

2008-10-07T12:02:00.008+08:00

closing up her eyes
feeling the fresh air and sand
she juz wanted to relax her mind..
*Let some answers be left unanswered,
and let some truth be left untold.*
this is the best way
to keep everything on going well..
the answer is somewhere in her heart..
there is no true or false..
she will juz give everything she needs to give
what it comes in return
it doesn't matter..

dolL * 02 - wonderinG

2008-09-29T10:34:00.015+08:00

she hopes he doesn't angry edi..

she starts wondering... ...

what is she doing all this juz for the sake of him..

she owaz lend her hand when he needed..

giving too much rely on her..

too much depending on her..

and let him be in whichever way he wants..

even though she knew it's not the correct way..

she juz worried that

would it be leading him into a bad habit..

turn him into a nicely wrapped empty gift box..

-.-

but she can't change at this moment..

still she would be there whenever he needs..

dolL * 01 - emptY

2008-09-29T09:22:00.008+08:00

she can't sleep well thru out the nite..

things happened juz now keep on replaying in her mind..

she scolded him accidentally..

she didn't want to but somehow it happened..

she felt bad after he left..

her mind was suddenly blank..

she feels empty ..

she knew he muz be angry..

so she apologize to him..

"sorrY.."

littLe bLuu

2008-09-25T10:21:00.006+08:00

cutiee little bluu~ i hop to see real little bluu..can't wait!! >.<

[photos grabbed from http://www.customizeyourgifts.blogspot.com/ ..hehe bcoz i forgot to take pic of the mug that day before giv it to ami]

it's a belated bday gift for Ami.. a fren since we were in kindergarden.. omg~

Ami loves miaw miaw.. she can talk miaw's language too.. haha~

Ami, meimei wish u all the best oo!!

i'll work hard and joining u in future.. hehe..

don miss me too much.. bcoz i knew that.. =P

take k oo~ ^-^* ami & little bluu*

280808 (part 2) ^-^*

2008-09-08T22:40:00.013+08:00

few days after my bday.. got another gift came in late..

he is late again.. owaz late..

if not duh overslept.. bo bian..lol~

even it was late, but it's special..

it was put in my car and i couldnt see what was that actualli bcoz it was so dark..

i touched some leaves 1stly i tot it was rose but bukan..

i was wondering what is that bcoz i was told that it will be a weird present i ever got..

hmm..

i almost up-side-down it to see what is that..

lucki i dint..

if not all the water poured out in my car duh tiam..lol~

but stil i split out some water..

b4 he told me that got water inside..

i drove kfulli and slowly home..

once i opened up the wrapper, it's realli surprised me..
it's a custom design glass with my name written on it..

it's was so cute and lovely~

but..

it's weird also lo..as what i hav been told..

there are cabbage looks alike unknown plant in the glass..

dont u feel that also?

lol~

weird hor what's the meaning of the gift le?

hmm..

oo.. he said it's like the growing gift application in facebook..

but this is a real growing gift..

so i can realli take k of the plant lo..

oo..interesting idea..creative..

it's memang a weird present which i never got b4..

but it's special..

oni weird ppl will com out with this weird idea lo..

haha~

after a while, i noticed that the trasparent varnish to protect the painting on the glass started dropping off..

ops!! kena air la!! duh..

i hav to transfer the plant into another container and poured out the water in the glass..

wiped it kfulli with tissue to let it dry..

phew~ lucki the painting is saved..

hor chai ar..

i was so sleepy edi yet i hav to do that quietly in the midnite and take pic..

hehe..

it's all the sukuwen's fault lo..

put so many water inside the glass..

lol~

the painting is so

lovely..

done by prettie joanne..

thanx alot ^-^*

cute tiger, pig and a donkey..

with the lovely design..

it makes the glass so unique..

i'm so happii to hav it..

it belongs to me~

yeah~
^.^v

a gift from sukuwen..

realli thanx for it..

i'm owaz like to argue with ur opinion..

but this is realli a special gift..

lol~
TQ wen ^-^*

i put it in a nice bowl..

wait and see the "cabbage" plant to grow up..

lol~

280808 ^-^*

2008-09-08T21:12:00.016+08:00

while i was watching trailer of

" money no enough 2"..

>> " when is ur bday?"

" 8/3"

" what year?"

" every year.."

LOL~ it's funni but yet logic also..

28.08~ it's my day again.. once a year.. every year.. hehe..

i never hav a big celebration for it bcoz i don realli like it..

i'll prefer to go for a simple dinner.. with few of my frens n family..

this year i had a great bday.. ^-^*

on my bday eve..

i went to meet up with few of my primary school classmates, which i hav not seen them since i graduated from primary 6 le.. omg!! it's realli long lost fren lo.. it was so please to see them again.. lots of memories came up in our mind when we talked about our past time in class.. even they dint know it was my bday on the next day.. but it was a great present for me edi.. hop to meet them all again in future and take a group pic of all of us.. ^^

that was my 1st present for my bday.. i got it for myself..

on the big day..

my frens and my family they made me a warm bday with their wishes and gifts..

all the wishes flooding in my sms, facebook and friendster.. lol~

i love all the present i got.. realli happii ^-^*

this is from my lovely colleagues..
*payung*alan*ezan*alexius*Q*asfia*val*terry*hel*kenny*

miaw miaw i wan tissue~ haha~

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ini pulak gift from Tan's family *ben*chuying*mich*.. hehe..
a sexy new dress for me.. =P

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woo~ a box of ferrero rocher from ming & ping.. golden shinny blink* blink* ..

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Your DolL

2008-08-20T00:05:00.001+08:00

u wanted a toY

so i turned into your dolL

would u be minE?

Last Song

2008-07-09T11:06:00.001+08:00

this is the 1st poem i wrote for my prince last time..
a prince that i ever deeply fell for him..
but he didn't belong to me..
he's so perfect and i believed that he is the only one..
i don't think i could find a sustitute in future..
it was juz like a dream..
a wonderful dream..
it built up a great castle in my memories..

here it began..~
it's virginity write u a song
u say anything owaz on my mind
juz simple a few words
coincidence forever luv
do u believe wif it?
it's de art of life choo mo goc
an angel wif broken wings
her tears into de endless rain
lost her way back to paradise
crucify her luv
a deep sense of longing
de last song is de 1st song
playing wif ur guitar unfinished
as one~ur existence in jojoshi..
the love to u is alive in me
u r aside of me...every day..

Mei v jeWeL

exceptioN

imperfecT

dolL * 47 - fakenesS

dolL * 46 - balloonS

dolL * 45 - endurE

dolL * 44 - learnT

dolL * 43 - admiT

dolL * 42 - doubT

dolL * 41 - belonGs

Rainbow in the Dark

dolL * 40 - perhapS

dolL * 39 - lockeD

dolL * 38 - tearS

dolL * 37 - irreplaceablE

21th...

28.08

Paper & Pen

dolL * 36 - unknowN

14.08

dolL * 35 - wisheS

dolL * 34 - clicK

dolL * 34 - adorE

dolL * 33 - shadoW

dolL * 32 - serenE

dolL * 31 - difficultY

dolL * 30

*Purpled loVe*

dolL * 29 - differencE

dolL * 28 - eternaL

dolL 27 * - portraY

dolL * 26 - charmeD

dolL * 25 - momentS

dolL * 24 - comforT

dolL * 23 - onlY

dolL * 22 - supporT

dolL * 21 - togetheR

dolL * 20 - speciaL

dolL * 19 - beloveD

dolL * 18 - finallY

dolL * 17 - oddnesS

dolL * 16 - exhausteD

dolL * 15 - confuseD

dolL * 14 - hurT

drugGz

dolL * 13 - abandoN

dolL * 12 - holD

dolL * 11 - addictioN

dolL * 10 - meltinG

dolL * 09 - losT

dolL * 08 - runawaY

desiGn reCipe

dolL * 07 - hiding deviL

groWing gift

dolL * 06 - worrieS

dolL * 05 - complicateD

dolL * 04 - perfecT

dolL * 03 - silencE

dolL * 02 - wonderinG

dolL * 01 - emptY

*littLe bLuu*

280808 (part 2) ^-^*

280808 ^-^*

Your DolL

Last Song

Purpled loVe

littLe bLuu